I wish that I could explain to you how much you mean to me. I was a different person before we met….
Not that I did not kept my independence … but … I got used with accepting the fact that once in while … even I need to know someone beside me …whom I can lean on and count …
I wish I could tell you how much I love you. But there just aren’t words, are there? The friendship we have is the kind that only comes so rare in a lifetime ….
Apeared suddenly , unexpected … started with a smile … Oh , I so wished I would’ve never smiled to you that time …. If only I would’ve known that my stupid smile would make me cry later in time … you have my word I would’ve not even look at you , nor speaking about smiling .
I probably thought that it’ll be just another friendly face I’m winning over .
God damn it !
It was one of a kind friend !!!!
Been through all kind of phases in this relative short but intense period … from joy and hapiness till tears and sadness …
Shared the feelings one around eachother … reached a hand one to eachother …. had a certain specific language …
Words … don’t come easy to me … an you *&*&^ know it …. Oh ! But …..feelings does . And is so damn scary and sad when they come in cascade , like now ….
I told someone no too long ago that I would’ve wish not to have feelings , not to feel anything in certain moments …. The person said is not that good . Oh … God knows is so good sometimes , and this is one of those times ….
I wish you nothing but the best in your new life. It’s *&*&* strange knowing that I won’t see you every day …. I genuinely hope that you find all the happiness you deserve….
But I’m scared. I know it’s selfish, but I need to know you’re around , somewhere … And I would like to know you need me too . I don’t want to think that you could find someone else to pass the time with , just like we used to do , in your new life.
You said I gaved you the best Christmas … I’d say you gaved me some of the best time !
Your friendship means so much to me… I would like to think that I’m irreplaceable to you, and that there isn’t another person who could take my place in your life. But I’ve never thought that highly of myself…. So …. I take back the last phrase …
Please don’t replace me… Please remember to call me whenever you can… I’ll always answer, and I’ll always be there for you. No matter what happens.
I love you to the moon and back , kiddo !
All my love,
Your broken hearted friend ….